Guess who's going to Estonia tomorror? :D And this time I will actually see my friends too. So good! But first I gotta survive a night on ship with my dad. No man snores more awfully. Seriously. Yesterday night I slept only 3 hours. I woke up, clapt my hands really loud, but of course it didn't help. I couldn't throw something at him, 'cause it would have been so mean. Gosh, I had forgotten how difficult it is to live under the same roof with a man. He's gone soon, so whatever. The whole family is together now and it feels weird. Thanks to this is the bond between me and my sister getting stronger. I love hanging around with her. I think that around her I act much weirder than around others :D Yeah, I'm so 19 years old. At least still a teen.

I'm suprised about that feeling inside me. I really love him. I'm facinated, amazed, happy, happy, happy. That's the way it is with ppl who's in love. It's so ordinary, nothing unseen or unfelt, but gosh.. I think about it every day and it gives me chills. I don't believe in love at first sight. It's just first impression, based only on appearance. It wasn't there in the beginning. But suddenly.. yeah. Guess you learn to love. I ain't letting go. I'm waiting. Patience. No one can see it the way I do. Noone has to know, how it is. HIS MINE