I feel much better. He did the right thing and I'm glad even though I'll miss him as hell!! Everything doesn't have to be perfect. To be honest, I think the bad things may not be that bad at all. Eventually it could be even a good thing. The distance doesn't matter. The difficulties doesn't matter. And becides, I'm never alone even when sometimes feels like I am. I have my ppl. Not all the time, but still. I'll never loose my homies. That reminds me CHERRY, GOOD LUCK IN UK! U're crazy, and I love that. And all others: I'm not the type who forgets :)
Give me one good reason I shouldn't be here this evening rubing and squeezing ur troubles away.
We were talking about our homelands one day. One girl from Afganistan asked, what language we speak in Estonia. When I answered that estonian, she said "I thought that english.". Then yesterday a girl came to me and asked where am I from. She thought that I'm from UK. Then many times when I had to say where I'm from, ppl have hurd "Iceland" (in swedish Estonia is Estland and Iceland is Island, guess it sounds similar). Other thing that I had to explain is that Estonia is more like Skandinavian countries, not like Russia, Latvia and Lithuania, even though we share landborder(is it a word?) with fist 2 countries.
Oh school!! Today we were talking about a persian restaurant. A guy told about different foods that was offered there. He didn't know one name of a food in swedish AND OH MY GOSH, u should have seen, how everybody tryed to explain it with their hands. All others exept me and teacher understanded, what food he meant. If I didn't knew that they are talking about a food, I would have guessed that the word they are explaining is "wanking". It was fucking weird to see all class doing weird moves with hands. Laughed myself under the table.
"Du kan om du vill" ("U can, if u want") is a sentece that I hear pretty much every school-day. No pressure. That I really like. I'm gonna do all exercises teachers give me anyway, but it's still good, that they add that sentence "Du kan om du vill". And they always praise us. Jag kan snacka lite svenska redan :) Men jag vill bli bättre. Mycket bättre! Wanna learn some swedish? One cool sentence is "Har du en hund, katten?". It means "Have u a boyfriend, pretty girl?". When I translate it directly, it's "Do you have a dog, pussycat?" :D I really love swedish!
Family dinners drives me crazy! All I can hear is "This is so good and light. Not much fat in it. It's so light!" blablabla. I really don't care that much. I'm not eating junk, so.. What life it is, when u can't even eat normally? Besides, u gotta have some fat on u. Skinni asses aint that pretty. Eat, train and enjoy the life, for god sake. Not eating makes ppl angry. No food can make u fat if u don't eat it too much. Seriously! Eating alone is boring, but those twisted minds.. Crazy food obsession. I don't wanna feel bad when I eat spagetties with bolognese sauce and salad and in the meanwhile eat em grass :D I enjoy the food, they enjoy the lightness. I like my baseball-size bootie :D Yes, I learnd to like myself. Do so too. It's embarrassing, but once I started to cry, when I looked myself in the mirror. WEIRDOOOO! These days are ovaa! I'm beautiful in my way, 'cause God makes no mistakes (I'm not a believer, but still I WAS BORN THIS WAY!).
"Once u go black, there's no turning back." Daddy, if u'd only knew how much I love chocolate :D Now please don't take it wrong, ok? I googled that saying and I saw an explanation from a presumable racist. He/she said "Because once u go black, we don't want u back.". I actually laughed. There are 2 opportunities how stupid things make me act: I'll be angry or I'll laugh about it. "See when whites came to the black areas..blacks weren't forced to accept them..they just did."... And I accept all coulours :)